The Problem is: How to Severe Your Head from Your Neck

Don't you sometimes wish it's not illegal to be chopping off people's heads? Like, when you feel like it, you just go grab an axe or something even more dramatic like a chainsaw and find the one you want to decapitate and just... do it. Well, I do wish so, sometimes. I'm not a maniac and I don't think I have any psychological disorders (but I haven't checked it with the nearest shrink, so don't take my word for it), but the urge appears, on and off, days and nights. Maybe it has something to do with my uncontrollably diverse mood, it can change from sunshiny day to a deadly blizzard without any apparent reason. Or maybe it's the little demon in me that craves for blood, or rather, the proper release for anger, be it bashing on other people or hurting myself.

The thing is, I can't always control my anger. It's horrible, most of the times (ask my boyfriend, he'll confirm this). There can never be anything too simple that can light my fuse, and this fuse, quite unfortunately, is short.

It's not so hard to deal with when I'm all alone in my room, because I have a poor, white teddy bear named Reita I can beat up every time I feel like venting my frustration. But what if I'm in a public area? What if someone at my office pisses me off? Well, in fact, it's happening now. Errr... recently. But I still feel very, very angry towards this one person who couldn't watch the things she said, if only to save me from getting offended (lucky her, mutilation in public is considered a heavy crime). My anger makes me feel uncomfortable being in the office, and that is terrible, because like it or not, the office is the only place where I can make money. In the end, money has to win, so I'm supposed to suppress whatever discomfort I feel towards my colleagues.


I wish she would just suffer the biggest humiliation ever so that I can feel a little at ease.



Yes, that's just how grudgeful I am.



Well, I better post this and sign off; I'm in my boss' room anyway. I am trying to find some solitude and the job that I have been assigned to allowed me to sit here and use the computer for my own wellbeing *laughs*.




By the way, I'm currently in love with this pretty electronic creature:


It's not out in my city yet, but when it is, I'm going to raid the cellphone dealer.